As mentioned before, there are times when we missed out on the opportunity for a beautiful friendship just because we were trying too hard to look for a perfect relationship, and as it has been shown to be true, many bonds in friendships are stronger than those found in relationships. So my friend, don't step back. You may not know what you're missing...
I've been following the progress of your whole story, and as it were, my own heart is also still raw from a recent assault, and I know what you're going through... take heart, dear friend, for in this life, we are all pilgrims, wandering about and around, looking for a way to go back home. But until we do, we still have many sunrises, sunsets, and dark moonless nights to endure. And when the moon is slow to show, you'd be lucky to have someone to come and build a bonfire for you. But chances are, we won't always be lucky. So we'd be happy to have someone, to sit through the dark night with.
And in many instances, we'd rather be happy than lucky. No?